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‘What was Arthur like?’ Kate James repeated the inspector’s question, but softly as if speaking to herself. She turned away and looked pensively out the window, apparently deep in thought. It wasn’t that she didn’t have an answer. Rather, it was, she felt, the type of question that deserved at least the appearance of consideration. She hoped that the pause and the stare at the sky outside the window of the flat conveyed that she was taking the question seriously and formulating her response carefully. She wanted to be helpful—always within the bounds of discretion, of course. It wouldn’t do to give too much away. She had to control her anger and her fear.
The drizzle had stopped, but raindrops still beaded the window. The clouds were thick; it would rain again later, she thought. If the inspector and the constable left soon, she could finish the shopping before the rain started again. Derek’s mother was particular about food, and she had several hours of cooking ahead of her, and the house still had to be cleaned. She liked her mother-in-law, and she thought Derek’s mother had a good opinion of her and considered her an appropriate match for Derek, a thought that gave her no little pleasure.
One of the
policeman shifted position. The chair in which he was sitting creaked, and the
noise drew her attention back. Perhaps she shouldn’t have offered them coffee.
But that was what everyone did in police shows on the telly—offer coffee or
tea. Usually the senior policeman present refused. But the inspector had
accepted her offer with apparent gratitude. When she carried the tray with the
cups and cafetière and the milk and sugar into the lounge, she had the impression
that the two policemen had inspected the room during her absence. Both of them
were standing, and they sat down again only when she did. Now they looked fixed
in their chairs.
Kate turned to the
inspector and allowed her eyes to meet his with what she hoped was appropriate
candour. ‘Arthur could be difficult. I got along with him, but most people
found him rather trying. I last saw him a week ago yesterday, however. We were
away on holiday. My husband and I just returned last night. I haven’t even done
the shopping yet. There’s nothing to eat, and my husband’s mother is coming for
dinner tonight.’ She fidgeted in her chair and glanced at her watch, hoping the
police would understand that she was in a hurry. The constable made a note on
his pad. ‘I can’t tell you anything. I don’t know why he committed suicide. I’m
sorry, but I don’t know anything that could help you. I last saw him the day
before we left for Spain, and he seemed his usual self then.’
She giggled
nervously and then instantly remembered that the occasion was not one for levity.
She pressed her fingers over her lips and looked down at the carpet. ‘It’s so
hard to imagine that he’s gone.’
The inspector
settled back into his chair. ‘You said he could be trying. In what way?’
What would other
people at work have told them already? Surely they would have been candid, now
that Arthur was gone. Bill and Margaret would have welcomed the opportunity to
speak ill of Arthur. Best to be truthful, then, but sound judicious not
vindictive. ‘Arthur thought all of us were entitled to his opinion, and he
didn’t hesitate to give it. I suppose he thought of it as a good deed—letting
you know the truth and putting you straight about things. And he wasn’t very
forgiving of others. He was very critical, always criticising in fact. And it
wasn’t often justified. He’d pick out some little thing and blow it up. But I
don’t see what this has to do with his suicide.’
‘We’re trying to
get a better picture of Mr Collier. It helps us to understand him and the reasons
for his death.’
‘How long did you
know him?’ The constable spoke for the first time.
‘I started at Hendricks
six years ago, in the billing department. I was introduced to him soon after I
started, but I didn’t really know him—just to say hello in the corridors or the
lunchroom, that sort of thing. Last year, after I finished several courses—I’m
taking a business degree at the Open University—I was promoted to the customer
service department and given charge of a group of our clients. All of us work
on the same floor. I was given the desk next to Arthur’s. It was the only one
open, because no one wanted to work next to him.’
The constable paged
back through his notes, apparently checking an earlier statement. ‘You appear
to have been on better terms with him than most of your colleagues?’ He framed
his remarks as a question, as if prompting Kate to explain her colleagues’
remarks. ‘Several of your co-workers mentioned that you got along with him?’
‘I suppose I did. I
had heard about him, and the first day in my present position, he started in on
me. I let him know I wasn’t going to put up with him, and I think he respected
me for that. I didn’t let him bully me. I didn’t shout at him or anything like
that. Most of the time, I just made a joke about what he was trying to do. When
he found out that he couldn’t push me around, he left me alone. I wouldn’t say
we were friends, but we were friendly. Just at work, though. I never saw him
outside the office.’
The constable made
several notes and then flipped over a page on his pad. The inspector waited
until his colleague finished writing before asking, ‘Did he talk about his
personal life?’
‘Not often. He was
always mysterious about that. You know, like there was more to him that he
could reveal.’ Kate looked down at her hands and forearms. Her tan was really
quite good. Poor Derek. He burned so easily with that fair skin of his. A pity
her tan wouldn’t last. Another two or three weeks and she would be pasty white
again. Perhaps she should sit in the sun during her lunch hours. Regular visits
to a tanning salon would probably be too expensive.
Arthur’s desk was
by the window. Of course, he had always kept the shade down. He didn’t want his
co-workers looking out the window. Hendricks would have to hire a replacement.
There was far too much work for the customer service reps as it was. But
perhaps if the position hadn’t been filled yet, she could ask to have his desk.
She would keep the shade up and even open the window when the weather was nice.
She was glad that
Arthur had waited until after she and Derek had left for their holiday. If he
had killed himself before they left, Hendricks might have asked her to postpone
the trip to fill in at the office. But they could hardly ask her to come back
from Spain. As it was, she hadn’t learned of Arthur’s suicide until they had
returned yesterday and played back the phone messages on the answering machine.
Both Susan and Maggie had rung separately to tell her. Maggie had contributed a
pound on her behalf for the wreath the office sent to the memorial service (fortunately
she had been spared the duty of attending). She would have to remember to repay
her. But then Maggie wouldn’t let her forget. She was glad they hadn’t spent
more. It was such a waste to send flowers to a funeral, but everyone expected
you to do at least that.
‘Did he ever
mention suicide to you or discuss any reasons why one might commit suicide?’ The
police constable seemed to have made himself responsible for conducting the
interview. The inspector had lowered his head and was eyeing the titles on the
bookshelves next to his chair.
‘No, never. But it’s
not the sort of conversation you have in an office, is it? Didn’t he mention
why in his note?’
‘There was no note,’
said the inspector. ‘It is the absence of a note that has brought us here.’
It took Kate a few
seconds to understand the implications of the inspector’s remark. ‘But surely it
was suicide, wasn’t it? The people from the office who called said it was
suicide.’
‘The facts of the
case could support either suicide or murder. If it was murder, it was disguised
to look like a suicide.’
‘But no one would
murder Arthur. He was such a pitiful creature. If anything, Arthur would try to
disguise a suicide to look like murder. I’m sorry. I don’t like to speak
harshly of the dead, but you did ask. Arthur would like the idea that he was
causing you trouble. That’s the kind of person he was. Always trying to stir
things up.’
The two policemen
glanced at each other and then leaned forward in their chairs and stared at her
intently. Kate suddenly knew that she had given them something they had been
looking for. She was in for a long bout of questioning now. She and Derek would
have to take his mother to a restaurant. Well, at least, she had a good excuse,
and she would have plenty to tell them.
‘Why did you say he
was a pitiful creature?’ The constable wrote something on his pad and then
looked at Kate expectantly.
‘Well, there was
his blog.’ Kate felt a red rush of anger. She thought she had put her feelings
about what Arthur had written behind her, but they were as strong as they had
been when she first discovered Arthur’s writings. Her words came gushing out. ‘He
had this blog. I ran across it by accident, and it was horrid. I … I was so furious with him. The
things he said. His lies. It was disgusting. He had names for all of us. Nasty,
spiteful names.’
Kate grabbed a
tissue from the box on the table and pressed it against her face. ‘He took
every little incident and blew it up into something awful. And if something
good happened, he took credit for it. He boasted about all these things he had
supposedly done. And none of it was true. He was making it all up.’ She turned
away and began crying.
‘Would you like a
glass of water?’ The inspector motioned to the constable, who put his pen and
pad down and went into the kitchen. Kate heard a cabinet door open and then the
sound of running water. The constable came back into the room and set the glass
down on the table beside Kate.
She automatically
picked it up and drank. ‘Thank you. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to get so upset. I
pushed it out of my mind while we were on holiday, and it just suddenly came
back to me.’
‘Don’t worry about
it. I know it’s difficult to talk about such things, but it would really help
us if you tell us about his blog. If it’s too hard for you to talk about it
now, we can come back later.’ Both the inspector and the constable smiled at
her sympathetically.
I don’t want you
coming back, thought Kate. ‘No, I just want to get it over with. It won’t be
any easier later.’
‘Thank you. We
appreciate your taking the time to talk with us. But if it becomes too
difficult, let us know. How did you learn of Mr Collier’s blog? Did he tell you
about it?’
‘No. I, well, I’ve
been thinking about finding a job at another firm. Please don’t mention that to
anyone at Hendricks. Hendricks is fine, but it’s so far away. When I first
started working there, I lived closer—just a fifteen-minute bus ride. I could
even walk to work on nice days. I did that sometimes. But when Derek and I got
married, we moved into this flat. It’s perfect for us, but it means that I have
a longer commute to work. I have to take the underground and change at King’s
Cross, and there are always delays and stoppages. The trip takes at least an
hour. Some nights it’s almost 7:00 by the time I get home, and then I still
have to do the cooking and the washing up. And then I’m so tired I just want to
go to bed. It’s not fair to Derek that I’m so tired, and we barely get to see
each other during the week.’
The inspector
nodded. ‘I understand. So you were looking for another job, something closer …?’
‘Yes. This was two
nights before we left. I was searching for jobs at printing firms in London. I
planned to start looking when we came back from Spain. I ran across this blog
about working at a printer’s, and I thought it might have some information I
could use. But when I started reading it, I realised it was about Hendricks.
All of us were there. Arthur had given us different names, but I could identify
most of the people. And it was easy to see that it was written by Arthur. He
gave himself the starring role.’
‘Do you have the
address?’
‘I’m not likely to
forget it.’ Kate spelled out the URL.
‘I take it the
content of the blog was distressing.’ The constable looked up from his notebook
and smiled encouragingly at Kate.
‘Well, as I said,
he either took credit for everything or he magnified other people’s mistakes
and made them seem worse than they were. He had to step in and set things
right. The worst was …’ Kate
hesitated and turned away from the two policemen. ‘The worst was that he
claimed to have had sex with practically every woman at Hendricks, even the
older ones—he described those as ‘charity fucks’. That was the term he used.
Mrs Hendricks—she and her husband founded Hendricks—she’s in her mid-sixties,
and according to Arthur, she wanted to leave her husband and run off with him,
but Arthur had persuaded her against this. The way he described it we were his
private harem. And he wrote what he had done with each of us in detail. I felt … violated. It was as if he had raped
me and was bragging about it.’
‘I’m sorry, but I
have to ask this. Do you think any of these claims were true?’
‘No. Arthur was
horrible. No one would have gone to bed with him. He was making all of it up.
You shouldn’t ask such questions. How can you say such things?’
‘We have to
investigate all possibilities, Mrs James. A jilted lover might have thought she
had reason to harm Mr Collier. I’m sorry if this distresses you.’
‘Arthur was just
another one of those sick people on the Internet who hides behind a cute name
and thinks he can say anything because no one knows who he is. He’s horrid,
just horrid. I know he thinks he’s better than all of us, but he shouldn’t have
said those things.’
‘Did you talk with
him about this blog?’
‘No, of course not.
I wasn’t going to speak with him ever again. I just wanted to get out of there.’
‘Did you tell
anyone else about his blog?’
‘Just Mrs Flowers
in Personnel. Part of her job is to deal with problems between employees at
work. I made an appointment to see her the day before we left. I told her what
I had found, and she looked at Arthur’s blog and read a few entries. She agreed
with me that it had to stop. She felt the same way I did. She said she would
have a word with Arthur.’ Actually Mrs Flowers had spoken out forcefully and
said that she would put a stop to it and that if Arthur didn’t agree to delete
the blog immediately, she would have to speak to the company lawyers. Kate was
beginning to regret being so open with the inspector and the constable. Perhaps
she had revealed too much. She didn’t want to cause problems for Mrs Flowers,
who had only been trying to help.
‘Do you know if she
did? Would she have spoken to other people?’
‘She may have
talked with Arthur. I don’t know what she did with the information I gave her. When
I left, she was printing out pages from Arthur’s blog. I had the impression
that she was going to speak to Arthur first and see what he had to say and then
maybe discuss this with others at Hendricks.’
‘Would she have let
Mr Collier know that you were the one who made the complaint?’
‘No, she wouldn’t
have done that. Not without my permission.’ Kate suddenly had a vision of
Arthur extracting revenge. But it hadn’t been her fault. She hadn’t made him
write those awful things. If he got fired, it served him right.
‘Mrs Flowers works
in Personnel? Is she there every day?’ The constable looked back through his
notes.
‘Yes, she works in
Personnel. I think she’s there every day. I don’t know. I don’t see those
people very often.’
‘How do you think
Mr Collier would react to a meeting with Mrs Flowers?’ The inspector spoke very
quietly.
‘I don’t know. I
think he would try to bluster and deny that the blog was his. He would threaten
to sue the company and her personally. But it was clearly written by him. He
couldn’t deny that. He would have to find some other lies to tell, some other
story to make up.’
‘And if he had no other
story to tell?’
‘Do you think
that’s why he committed suicide? Because he had been found out? Are you saying
this is my fault? That I should have kept quiet?’
The inspector shook
his head. ‘No, not at all.’
‘He could have told
the truth. He didn’t have to lie. What was I supposed to do? Let him go on
telling lies? I didn’t think he would kill himself. But if he did, I’m not
sorry. He shouldn’t have lied about us.’
She grabbed at a
tissue, but in her haste she pulled a handful from the box. She batted at the
box and shoved it to the floor. ‘He had no right. He ruined everything. I
thought we were friends, and he wrote all those awful things about me. I never
did anything to him. I was always polite. It was all his fault. He was too
ashamed to live with his lies. That’s why he killed himself. It didn’t have
anything to do with me.’ Kate looked the inspector in the eye and dared him to
dispute what she had said. It wasn’t her fault. No one would think it was her
fault, not if they saw the things Arthur had written about her.
‘No. As you say, it
was something he brought upon himself.’ The inspector stood up. ‘Well, I think
we have taken enough of your time today, Mrs James.’
A few seconds
later, the constable finished writing in his notebook and closed it.
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